When my older brother was little, he asked my parents, "what does patience mean?" My mom or dad responded, "it means you have to wait." Jeremiah's response: "Me no like patience."
Well I am 6 days away from possibly having this baby, and I was told today it will probably be a lot longer. I feel a bit like a toddler waiting. "Me no like patience." On Sunday at church they played one of my favorite worship pieces, "Everlasting God," by Chris Tomlin. This song has come up in my life when I have needed to hear it most. It reminds me it is going to be OK; strength will rise as I wait upon the Lord. Last time this song came up in my life was when I was struggling with burn-out and some depression. God gave me the courage to wait and wait until he pulled me through. Have you ever had a song that has shaped what you are going through? It could be God speaking to you even for the first time. What is that song to you?
The main verse of "Everlasting God" is "strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord." There is something about waiting upon God that is so much more rewarding and life-giving than waiting upon a doctor or a test result. They are only human like you and like me. When we wait upon God almighty, we are guaranteed that He has our best interest at heart and we can rest in His loving embrace trusting that he will take care of us and those we love. It does not matter what we are facing -- a surgery, a job change, a loss of a job, a new life entering the family -- all these things God can take care of and has taken care of before. If you and I rest in the knowledge that God loves us, and will take care of our daily needs, we have nothing to fear. We can wait patiently.
I don't know when our little one will finally make a grand entrance. But I do know that God is knitting her together to make her just the way she is supposed to be before she finally gets to meet us all.
Please pray that I can continue to patiently wait.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Monday, October 24, 2011
Ticking time bomb!!
Last night Tom came home and I told him that I think I should have a Halloween costume with a giant black ball on my belly with a fuse attached. Tick, tick, tick! BOOM! Showing people that I might explode anytime now. I am ready now, to have my body back. It is amazing how the fear of labor dissipates because it is natural to want your own body back.
Pregnancy sure has been an adventure. I could have gone without the never ending emotional roller coaster of this last trimester, but the rest of the pregnancy has been pretty amazing. When I stop and think, there is a baby in my body, I am amazed all over again. What a miracle! It is when I give into the emotional lies that are thrown at me that I get discouraged and think this is never going to end.
Our prep for pregnancy teacher said, "No one stays pregnant forever." It is a silly quote, but it is a nice reminder too. At this stage in the pregnancy I can't imagine doing this again. But then I know the second that I have my baby girl in my arms I will look at Tom and say, " OK, I could do this again." It is just getting to that moment that has been challenging. One moment I am excited the next I am annoyed that I am still pregnant.
I had a God given thought the other day that still sits with me and challenges me. I think that women get the chance to experience the closest thing to what Christ went through on the cross. Jesus came to give himself for those that did not even know him yet. He came to pay the painful price for our sin so that we may live. That sounds pretty darn close to what women go through to me, except in a smaller scale. We give our bodies over to drastic changes for 9 months and then we painfully give life to a new being that does not even know how much we love them yet, and may never return that love. Our children will have the choice to walk in love with us their parents or to turn and live defiantly from our love. This is the story of the cross. We have a choice to live for Christ because of what he did or to walk away.
I told my mom the other day that I am so thankful for what she did, bringing us into the world. Any struggle that my mom or dad has now around what we are dealing with as their children has a whole new meaning to me now. When I think about the little life that is inside me and how much I want to protect her from the harm of this world, it in the end gives me a whole lot more grace for my parents with how they respond to me and my brothers. They love us and have definitely earned the right to challenge and correct us when needed. We will always be their children.
Pregnancy and becoming a parent is the hardest most challenging thing that I have ever experienced. But I know I am not doing it alone. I have an amazing man cheering me on every time I come close to condemning myself for what is going on in and outside of my body. I have loving parents who are eager to become grandparents and have been a great source of reality in the midst of fear. And most of all, I have a loving God who has gone through much greater pain then I will endure and is walking before me every step of the way.
So with that said, I don't have to worry about being a ticking time bomb, because in reality God knows exactly what will happen and for how long. He has already gone before me, and is preparing the way for His child Adelaide Eileen Merry to enter the world.
Gloria a Dios!! (Glory to God)
Amen
Pregnancy sure has been an adventure. I could have gone without the never ending emotional roller coaster of this last trimester, but the rest of the pregnancy has been pretty amazing. When I stop and think, there is a baby in my body, I am amazed all over again. What a miracle! It is when I give into the emotional lies that are thrown at me that I get discouraged and think this is never going to end.
Our prep for pregnancy teacher said, "No one stays pregnant forever." It is a silly quote, but it is a nice reminder too. At this stage in the pregnancy I can't imagine doing this again. But then I know the second that I have my baby girl in my arms I will look at Tom and say, " OK, I could do this again." It is just getting to that moment that has been challenging. One moment I am excited the next I am annoyed that I am still pregnant.
I had a God given thought the other day that still sits with me and challenges me. I think that women get the chance to experience the closest thing to what Christ went through on the cross. Jesus came to give himself for those that did not even know him yet. He came to pay the painful price for our sin so that we may live. That sounds pretty darn close to what women go through to me, except in a smaller scale. We give our bodies over to drastic changes for 9 months and then we painfully give life to a new being that does not even know how much we love them yet, and may never return that love. Our children will have the choice to walk in love with us their parents or to turn and live defiantly from our love. This is the story of the cross. We have a choice to live for Christ because of what he did or to walk away.
I told my mom the other day that I am so thankful for what she did, bringing us into the world. Any struggle that my mom or dad has now around what we are dealing with as their children has a whole new meaning to me now. When I think about the little life that is inside me and how much I want to protect her from the harm of this world, it in the end gives me a whole lot more grace for my parents with how they respond to me and my brothers. They love us and have definitely earned the right to challenge and correct us when needed. We will always be their children.
Pregnancy and becoming a parent is the hardest most challenging thing that I have ever experienced. But I know I am not doing it alone. I have an amazing man cheering me on every time I come close to condemning myself for what is going on in and outside of my body. I have loving parents who are eager to become grandparents and have been a great source of reality in the midst of fear. And most of all, I have a loving God who has gone through much greater pain then I will endure and is walking before me every step of the way.
So with that said, I don't have to worry about being a ticking time bomb, because in reality God knows exactly what will happen and for how long. He has already gone before me, and is preparing the way for His child Adelaide Eileen Merry to enter the world.
Gloria a Dios!! (Glory to God)
Amen
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Joy filled anticipation...
The inspiration for this blog is that I am about to become a mother and a parent. Tom and I have been married for almost 2 years, and before our 2 year mark we will hopefully and God willing bring a baby girl into the world.
Life sure seems to go fast sometimes, but it is full of adventures around every corner. 10 years ago I would have never said that becoming a parent would be an adventure. I would also not have said that becoming a wife was one either. I have learned the that they are both very much the opposite. Getting married and becoming a parent are two of the biggest adventures that I have ever had before.
There is always something new, always a new challenge, joy, or anticipation behind every corner. There is also very restful times, where we sit together with no where to go and just enjoy being in each others presence.
As the due date of our first born arrives, I am thankful that God has really changed my heart from fear into joy filled anticipation. I look forward to sharing more of this journey with you. Time will tell what stories I have and how they affect and challenge me.
In His Grip,
Alaina
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